New Beginnings

Like many others, in December of 2009, I found myself thinking of what my New Year's Resolution would be. I created a mental list of goals and I told myself that no matter what statistics said, I would carry out and achieve these goals. I was not in any way conservative about the list of goals that I created. No, I couldn't simply choose just one resolution - why - because this was going to be my year. This would be the year that I would transform myself into the me that I truly believed that I was capable of becoming! I would learn to manage the demands at work better and become more productive; I would begin once again to get on the treadmill and ensure that I was the healthiest me that I could be, etc, etc.

Then, as many others who were so passionate about their New Year's Resolution, I found myself in the middle of January, looking back, recounting those goals, and wondering why I had not yet even begun. I looked at my mental list of goals and saw a notebook's worth of paper, each scrunched and torn, thrown into the wastebasket of my mind. I was now part of that majority. I was now a part of that statistic.

For a moment, I allowed myself to sink into and travel to 'Feel Sorry for Myself Land' and began to ponder what could have been. Then I told myself, why does it have to be over? Why are my goals now lost? After all, is tomorrow not a brand new day, yet another chance to begin anew?

That very thought brought forth more thoughts, which was the beginning of the avalanche within my mind. I took my shovel and begin to dig through this beautiful chaos. I began to shovel away all of the falsehoods, unnecessary and misleading piles. I knew that sooner or later I would reach the truth.

I diligently continued my search, until a helping hand told me that I was looking in the wrong place. Another beautiful soul came along and pointed me in the right direction and so I began my search once again, sifting through the bits and pieces. Then - at last, the truth had been found! It was a truth more profound than any other I have even known!




And born of this truth - a new fantastic journey to a place that I had only imagined before in my dreams.

The wads of garbled & torn up goals, tossed away in exchange for crystals so much brighter and meaningful. A solitary journey no more, with sisters to dance with along the way. This journey has so much meaning, one spiritual and within, and the other - a life dream.

My message to you my friends ...

~Tomorrow is another day and a new beginning. Embrace the dream and don't give up.~

~When you find  beautiful souls who will travel with you along the way, reach out, share, laugh, celebrate, and  dance~

Emerging from the shadows

An Awakening

in light

Pushing past false selves

A fledgling

reborn,  tonight.

Layer upon layer of untruths

Melt from my skin

like ice

Puddles of darkness surround me

Evaporating

into the night.

The stars slowly descend

To encircle

my inner being

A dance of light and love -

An ethereal Celebration

of Seeing